Going to eat a meal with my best friend and not purge. If I manage this, it will be the first meal I’ve eaten in weeks that hasn’t been purged. I always go in with intentions of not purging in these situations but haven’t been very successful and I need a little success tonight.
So I might be asked to check myself into a hospital tonight. This is the first time in my life I’ve actually been able to afford and have support to do so but I’m still terrified to lift the fog I live in. All the stuff underneath is very scary.